Currently Playing Incomplete [Import CD#1] By Sisqó see related

Sometimes when I'm alone in my room, stupid things come to my mind. Like, what if I wasn't *that* ma-pride in the past, will things get better for me? Or what if I leave all the memories behind, will I finally find my happiness? What if I found the perfect guy for me, will I able to take it if i see the only guy i have ever fallen for SAD because I'm with someone else? Sometimes even if you really wanna move on and find someone else to make you feel whole, you can't... Because the person in your past is still in your heart. It's like, before you guys parted ways, he locked your heart, hid the key and left you alone.. It's so unfair because while he's having fun and socializing with people, you're alone in your room thinking about what went wrong, and also rejecting all the calls of the guys who wants to take you out. No matter how cute your new guy is and how cool his car is, you still cant forget your past and open your heart for the new guy. I admit that I was like that before, a year ago. But I'm so okay now. I got over someone with the help of my close friends. They made me realize how beautiful I am, inside and out. But don't you think it's more difficult when it all turned completely the opposite? When it's his time to suffer and feel the pain that I went through? And sending you messages like "all he wants is you and no one can take your place in his heart?" And all you reply is "its okay but im tired." What do you think did he feel that time?

Actually when I said that, I really got sad because I didn't know that I can do that to him... Ignoring all the messages he sent me and I even told him that he's got an attitude problem. But I was actually happy at the same time because he's the one who's missing me now. But.. Even if it's over for me, I still don't wanna see him sad and blaming himself for all the shiit that happened to our relationship before. He said sorry and he asked me to believe him for the last time, honestly I dunno if I still can and I think I don't want to. All I wanna do now is talk to him and tell him that I still like him and my friends also like him for me BUT I'm so tired, and I don't wanna get hurt again. I know and I'M SURE that he won't find another me and no one can take my place in his heart. And I know that he knows that I will always be his girl, but I think it's his turn now to prove me that he loves me. And also, I want him to tell me why I should stay.

If you're reading this, you know who you are. I want you to know that no one can take your place also.. But if you're just gonna give me bullshits again, maybe it's BETTER this way. Ayoko mahirapan ka, I don't want you to get hurt and also I don't want to see you sad. So what makes you happy, will make me happy. If I make you happy (I know), and you wanna tell me that again, well prove it. That's ALL I want you to do, no more no less. And if you can do that for me, i'll give you WHAT YOU DESERVE. --- Me. :)